Low Level Grief - Is There Such A Thing?
Or is it all just grief?
Last week a friend of ours died. Barb was the wife of a work friend of Tim's, named Caleb. Fellow believers, they became good friends over the years, and Tim and the kids would help him with taking trees down, or mowing when they were on vacation. We've known them for many years. Caleb has been dealing with limitations after a stroke a year and a half ago, but hearing that Barb went to be with the Lord, was such a surprise. She got a viral infection that went to her brain and was gone in a few months time.
This week we got word that another longtime, dear friend, from our early married days had a massive heart attack and died. He has dear wife, two kids who are married and two teenagers still at home. We were not expecting that.
Then their has been the terror attacks in Britain, the fire that took many lives in London, the terrible attack on our congressmen.
I have gone about my life these last two weeks, busy as usual, being present for my family, shopping for curtains with my daughter, celebrating my granddaughter's birthday - and while I have been living my normal life other people - some who I care about very much - their lives have been changed forever.
I have for a many years lived my life knowing that 'you never know what a day may bring' and that we should live the lives God gave us to live, knowing that HE knows the days that are prepared for us. (Psalm 139:16) One day, my life will be changed by the loss of parents or a child or my husband, or they will be dealing with the loss of me. It's so important to know where you will spend eternity.
So, grief. It is present in my life in way that it wasn't two weeks ago, though I feel like it has become a normal part of life now. Not in a debilitating way, but just more aware that the world is groaning in pain, and that in these days of instant news, we are so aware of every tragedy.
I am praying more than ever these days, and that is a good thing that has come from such events in the world, that we are living through.
I know that God is in control. I know that since I belong to Him nothing comes my way that He does not allow, and that He uses all things to bring us into closer relationship with Him.
Matthew 11:28-30 says - "Come unto me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke on you and learn from me, because I am gentle and humble of heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and my load is not hard to carry."