We met with the surgeon yesterday.
Kyle's accident was a week ago and we knew that the wrapping on his hand would be coming off for the doctor to look at how his hand is healing.
Kyle has said that he had to remind himself during the past week that those fingers were gone, and not just wrapped up to heal. The pointer and middle fingers he could see and was able to test them to make sure that they had good blood flow.
As the PA was removing the wrapping, Kyle closed his eyes and Tim wasn't looking either. I wasn't sure what I was going to do. The wrapping looked gross due to wound seepage and so I though "I don't know if I can look at his hand."
In the end I did look, and so did Tim and Kyle. He has stitches and swelling still, and there was a lot of dried blood. He also has more thumb than we thought, which is a huge blessing! He'll be able to write still and use flatware!
I'm not going to lie, it was hard to see my sons' hand with missing fingers. However, this is the reality. It will not help any of us, if we don't learn to see it as the new normal.
Kyle is doing amazing, but as he said yesterday, it's a new level of dealing with it, now that he can see it. Acceptance is a process and thank God for how he is helping us, but especially Kyle.
It's amazing how hard grief is. I've hardly cooked. Several people kindly brought us meals.
I'm grateful that we are sticking together through this and not being torn apart by it. God is good.
Thank you for upholding us through prayer! Man! We feel it. There is a peace that is with us in the middle of the pain. I appreciate you all so much!